Grief

If you are like me, understanding why you feel a certain may help you deal with any negative emotions that you have.

Well, the experience of losing someone you really love is a pretty sucky one, and, surprise surprise, it will generate a lot of emotions.

A ROLLING INTERTWINED BALL OF EMOTIONS.

So I started reading online regarding grief. It’s not like tons of my friends went through it. It’s not like so many people understood what it is like to lose a mother. It’s not like as if we could compare sorrows. It’s not a competition. Who is the saddest? Who had the worst loss? Heck, a loss is a loss and it is different for everyone because each of us have different kind relationships with different people. There is no constant K except for the deep sadness that one experiences…

I read a lot, and believe me it will help. I’m still crying but there are some comfort that in my loneliness, I’m not alone. Unfortunately.

This came out to be really true:
http://whatsyourgrief.com/64-things-about-grief/

A lot of wise words and different real experiences in this thread. I read each post. I cried a lot.:

https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/1wzcaj/serious_how_do_you_cope_with_the_passing_of/

 

We need to talk about grief. We need to talk about sadness and death. Otherwise, how do we go through life?

It’s a daily thing now

Put out a good cry

I miss you

Put out a good cry

Mom is gone

It has been only close to three weeks that mom passed away. First two weeks actually went by pretty fast. Now, I just don’t know what the hell I am doing. I want to tell everyone that my mom passed away and that I am very sad and that I think about her whenever my mind is not occupied by some insignificant daily life tasks or talking to people.

That I cry inside and out.

I miss her so goddamn much, I can’t even express it.

I know, I know. It’s a process, things will get better, “be strong”, etc. All this talk. I know she’s not at a better place, she’s not a star in the sky, I’m not sure and don’t really think she’s just beside me right now. The reality is that she died, she disappeared, and she is no longer alive. I will never ever see her ever again, and I won’t be able to communicate with her nor smell her nor hug her.

I miss you so much mom. I’m crying inside and out.